Some things seemed so usual...

(Sorry for the long post) The mother of a friend of mine recently passed away... I did not know her but her daughter works with me as well as her son in law and her granddaughter. I feel so horrible when things like this happen, there are no "correct" words to express. It got me thinking about all the people that my family has lost. We all lose loved ones and eventually we all end up moving past the initial grief and moving forward with our lives. I don't think people really ever "move on" (or maybe it's just my definition of it) I believe that people move forward and progress with their lives.. but do you ever really move on from somebody? You never forget their smile, their hug, you think of them when familiar things come around. They are everywhere around you.. so how exactly do you "move on"? Luckily we have the gospel in our lives, and we are able to know that we will see them again someday. I can't imagine looking towards the future, after somebody passes, and not believing that I would ever see them again. It just seems like there would be a hollow hole. Anywho...



I miss you grandpa- with all of my heart I miss you just being you, just being grandpa. Laughing and joking, filling my head full of random facts, but most of all I miss those hugs that you used to give. There is nothing like the hug from the most loving, caring, kind person in the world... grandpa...

Uncle Kunk(Kent) It has been such a long time since you passed, but it seems like it was so recent... I remember one of the last times I saw Uncle Kent he tried to pay me to drink the sour milk in the fridge.. hahaha Miss you!

Uncle Dennis, I am still amazed at how much you knew.. about everything. You were such a sweet sweet man! Miss you!

Uncle Jerry ( the only picture I could find I stole off of Charidee's facebook :) But it is a great picture of Uncle Jerry's smile! He is at Uncle Kent's grave with his grandson Tanner)Uncle Jerry was always so kind! I'm keepin up with your Broncos!! Miss you

I found a poem that my mom had found when Grandpa Barton passed away, printed it off, and gave it to my friend. She loved it and it reminded me how much it really helped me. So I thought I would share it again :)

Some things seemed so usual on that remembered day,
The sun arose, the birds awoke and kids came out to play.
For most of us the hours passed much like the days before.
We lost ourselves in busyness and rushed from talk to chore.
It was not so for you, my friend, and forever will it be
The day God said to your beloved come home and dwell with me.
Yes, on this day, you lost someone you loved with all your heart
and with this truth, the world you knew abruptly fell apart.
How fleeting was the moment that stilled this life so dear,
Yet, how profound the impact on you left mourning here.
Time offered no rehearsal for your feelings of goodbye
Whether sudden or expected it begs the question, "why?"
Some say God sends his children here with special tasks to do,
then calls them to him, one by one, when all their work is through.
Others feel, Thy will was done just life's eternal plan,
and when we enter Heaven's gates we'll finally understand.
Still, you might find little solace in the why behind your sorrow,
the one you love is gone from here, and this changes not tomorrow.
With this, your heart does lead you along a path of grief,
where you gather precious memories, and through tears you find relief.
The pace at which you travel is yours to set and share
with those on whome you'll count on to listen, talk, and care.
You may wish yourself to hurry and believe your mourning through,
Pain from loss prefers to stay and make a home with you.
And there it will become a friend who gently helps you cross
into a life that finds new meaning from your encounter with such loss.
This healing happens slowly over weeks and month and years
and even then, there will be days when memories call fresh tears.
A song, a scent, or photograph keeps your heart in touch
with all that you so treasured in the one you miss so much.
Yet, a time will come eventually when the pain of where you've been
Makes room within your hear for hope in life again.
Then may the joys of every day create memories for you heart
like precious gifts sent full of love from the one you did depart.
May you sense your loved one's spirit on a lazy sunshine day
and know the one you miss delights to watch you laugh and play.
May you recall that radiant smile in the sparkle of a star
and know its shinging extra bright to find you from afar.
May you hear your beloved's laughter in the misty falling rain
and know that tears from heaven fall from eyes that share your pain.
May you fell your loved one's touch when mild breezes blow...
To caress your cheek and whisper soft
"I still walk with you, you know"